Call Back

I’ve been pretending for so long the process is rapid, effortless and worse, automatic.


The way in

Vague memories are surfacing. They are more notions then narratives, feelings then scenarios. It's a bit unusual for me, I am hyper visual yet many of the details are just sensations. They've been locked away for four decades. The smallest thing seems a major revelation. He said he'd get me a toothbrush. I felt guilty he... Continue Reading →

My Fitness Mission Statement

I will fight to grow my body, mind and heart. I will build a physique that celebrates health, fitness and wellbeing. I will affirm my manhood, my right to it and inclusion in it. I will value my perspective no matter how unique or common. I will treat myself and others with kindness, compassion and... Continue Reading →

Strange New World

I enjoyed a simple pleasure, I liked my reflection in a mirror. I am picking clothes I look good in. I am tucking in my shirt, because damn, I look better that way. I’m rolling up my cuffs. Why? It makes my thick legs look even bigger of course. I am worth dressing. I saw... Continue Reading →


My muscles aren’t a shield against the world, they are not a compensation for some perceived defect.

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