I’ve been pretending for so long the process is rapid, effortless and worse, automatic.
Vague memories are surfacing. They are more notions then narratives, feelings then scenarios. It's a bit unusual for me, I am hyper visual yet many of the details are just sensations. They've been locked away for four decades. The smallest thing seems a major revelation. He said he'd get me a toothbrush. I felt guilty he... Continue Reading →
Laying there groggy, I recognized for the first time the depth of my experience.
...memory was this fragile...
I will fight to grow my body, mind and heart. I will build a physique that celebrates health, fitness and wellbeing. I will affirm my manhood, my right to it and inclusion in it. I will value my perspective no matter how unique or common. I will treat myself and others with kindness, compassion and... Continue Reading →
I enjoyed a simple pleasure, I liked my reflection in a mirror. I am picking clothes I look good in. I am tucking in my shirt, because damn, I look better that way. I’m rolling up my cuffs. Why? It makes my thick legs look even bigger of course. I am worth dressing. I saw... Continue Reading →
That’s all it took...Hardly anything to draw that line.
He had the fix to fill that gaping hole, NYC.