The writing about the rape is taking longer than I thought. I ask for patience from you and myself as I allow the process to unfold. As I dig deeper I am remembering details I never spoken of, one in particular I buried. I’ve long generalize what happened, he drugged me, raped me and then... Continue Reading →
Words don’t seem like they can carry the weight of what I can't set free.
Is that what I want you to know?
Today friends and trainees congregated to say goodbye to Nick Deacon. He felt a draw to Austin and he’s following it. A fellow trainee made a handbound book for us to write our most important lessons. I wrote: We covered a lot of territory while getting this ship on its desired course. There are 2 concepts... Continue Reading →
As part of my nutrition program, Precision Nutrition I was asked if I had any baggage left in my mental attic. I immediately thought of how trauma not only happens to you, it gets into you. It puts dinks in things that never should have been touched. I can never allow myself to forget that... Continue Reading →
This post offers a great analysis of the ideal shape. I enjoyed the history lesson and his reasoning. There is no doubt in my mind that Eugene Sandow’s rise to fame was due more to the symmetrical shapeliness of his enviable body than to the difficulty of feats of strength he performed. Generally speaking, there... Continue Reading →
I was in a new place with a new person doing a new thing. Appropriately, I was terrified.
My sense of self is flickering through a multitude of quantum states.