I’ve looked at this responsibility on a sliding scale with a murky mid section.
Off a dirt road behind the city I walked into a vast warehouse. Dark and quite. It’s sole gritty industry is pushing human performance. The athletes who train here squeeze their bodies through barriers most can’t even imagine. The only creature comfort are huge fans slamming the superheated Texan air around. Did I belong in... Continue Reading →
What coats my dread?
I thought I was going to be killed.
I’ve been pretending for so long the process is rapid, effortless and worse, automatic.
Vague memories are surfacing. They are more notions then narratives, feelings then scenarios. It's a bit unusual for me, I am hyper visual yet many of the details are just sensations. They've been locked away for four decades. The smallest thing seems a major revelation. He said he'd get me a toothbrush. I felt guilty he... Continue Reading →
Laying there groggy, I recognized for the first time the depth of my experience.
...memory was this fragile...